The Revenge

It was some years back when I ran into trouble. I was back in my village and the biggest day of the year when they put tikas and receive blessings from their seniors, I had a nasty brawl with a notorious bully of my village. I was never wrong and just couldn’t suppress my anger. He lost his conscious due to our severe beating. Later when he came to normal, he lured me by saying if I apologized to him, he would not case a file which I did. But he did not keep his words.

Looking back at those moments, which was the only time in my life when I really fulfilled by promises. When I was in the sixth standard I went to my village for the very first time. It took us six and a half day to reach home after getting off the bus. In between the journey, a guy mentioned about my father almost being killed by a group of thugs who beat him mercilessly. My father being a high school teacher might not have been that bad to get that beating. Those bullies in my village were the big shots then and they had the village moved according to their wish. At that very moment I promised that when I grow big, I’d fight that dude.

Later when we reached home, I encountered him and my fellow whispered the name of that bully. Back then I was so scared of him that I’d take the other path if we were about to get near. After sometimes I came back and used to think of that guy so much. Just thinking of him would startle me. Many years later, I went back to village, I did not get the opportunity to have a fight with him and I don’t remember, but it was in the Dashain I had my revenge. We don’t celebrate Dashain and the incident took place. After that incident, we all flew off the village and ran refuge in Bhojpur.

Upcoming Festive Season

The biggest festival of the year is just around the corner. Smiles can be seen in everybody’s face as this is the only time of the year when people seem very joyous. However, the season doesn’t only bring happiness but also some worries at the same time. There are a lot of families, who are deprived of the season’s happiness, be it financially or emotionally.

Sadly this season has also come to me as a burden. Friends suggest that we should take a hike or visit a meditation centre but to me in person, I feel like doing nothing. I don’t jump with the world and I may be quite happy if the world leaves far aback when I dwell myself in my own insidious world of feelings and remorse. But then again, I don’t want to sulk and have a dull festive season this time. I have my own ways of fighting time in my solitude. I have brought a bunch of horror movies to pass my time. I was never really into horror movies but this time around I’m going to try. This is the ideal way of adjusting the state of my mind at present.

Happy festive season to all.